Thursday, May 27, 2010
Here’s what I’m thinking. I need goals. I need self-improvement. I want a better body. I want it all – shiny hair, white teeth, “gorgeous gams,” increased energy, muscles you can SEE, do I need to go on?
But I’ve been down this road before (and here I am again), and it just doesn’t sound like fun to “crack down” and count my points and berate myself into doing SOMETHING, anything about it (losing weight, getting active, being healthy overall).
However. I have strong desires to be desirable. To FEEL svelte and proud of myself and confident and pretty, and dare I say…SEXY.
We all want that, yes?
Here’s what I’m going to do about it.
• Be kind to myself. Regard myself kindly, speak kindly to myself, treat myself like I am a dear friend. Being kind to myself means giving my body what it needs. Eat if I am hungry. But, STOP when I am not (sounds so simple but will be the hardest thing to learn in my life probably).
• Feed my SOUL. When I am not hungry anymore, and I still want to eat, I will feed my soul. I will comfort myself because I deserve it. I will drink tea, play with my child, talk to a friend, talk to my husband, maybe participate in some pampering and grooming.
• Be truthful. I am LYING to myself when I indulge too many times. I think I am “rewarding” myself, but there is no reward. Only bloating, gas, farts, and burps (not too aligned with my desire for sexiness, right?).
If I can do the above 80% of the time, I bet things will be feeling pretty good pretty soon. That’s another part of being kind to yourself. Allowing for imperfections.
Yeah, perfectionism can bite my ass.
So, this is what health is to me. None of the above has anything to do with counting, weighing, calculating, shame, embarrassment, or fear. Only kindness makes sense.
(Some of my ideas in this post are influenced by a new book Women, Food, and God. The author was featured on Oprah. I just want to give credit where credit is due. I still do not own this book, but I have read about it, and am already excited about it, and plan to buy it this weekend because it is not offered on the Kindle list dammit.)