Thursday, September 1, 2011

Last Cigarette



Write on Edge challenged us to write about a "season of change":

I loved sitting outside in the dark all alone, smoking a cigarette. “Healthy” types probably don’t think this is very zen, but really, it was almost like meditating.

Everything was so still, and there were plenty of stars to stare at between the clouds. My cat was lit up in the window, staring out at me with contempt.

My husband had left out of town that morning, and I could come out here as often as I wanted without judgment.

The only problem was, I was smoking my last cigarette.

In the morning, I will go and buy some more, I thought.

I took a drag.

If it’s positive, I won’t go buy any, and that will be that.

The next morning, the first thing I did was pee on a stick. I didn’t buy any cigarettes.

26 comments:

SherilinR said...

ha! i love the picture!
i can soooo relate to that zen cigarette. oh how i miss them.

Eva Gallant said...

Good for you for quitting!

blueviolet said...

Whaaaaaaaaaaat? So are you? Are you??????

Jessica said...

I remember my last cigarette. Ever since I had my oldest I cant touch them though. The smell of the smoke makes me gag. Weird huh? Good story!

angela @ Tiaras and Trucks said...

I used to love smoking, too. I knew how bad it was, but it was so calming in a way.

But yay for not having to buy any more cigarettes :)

Jamie said...

Loved reading that, the anticipation! I quit with all of mine too but it usually only took about two months for me to find them again. I'm still the girl that does the wine and occasional puffy treat. Some day maybe

Natalie said...

Good job on quitting!

Jessica said...

I'm glad you didn't buy anymore after peeing on the stick.

championm2000 said...

Oh, I remember my last one, too...

Valerie said...

I quit too, but once in a while I still miss them. In the long run though, it's the best decision-so good for you!!

Theresa said...

I remember my last one. I was waiting for my pregnancy test results. My 400 home tests were all ambiguous. I knew I was pregnant, was so scared. That cigarette tasted like shit.
I'm so excited for Monday!!!

Sanhita said...

Liked reading your post.. I can imagine the zen like feeling.. and how it is to quit!

Mommy's Paradise said...

Sometimes I miss those times sitting in the dark and enjoying. Absolutely peaceful. But ... times change, same as you I got pregnant and that was it. I'm glad you were able to quit too.

The Drama Mama said...

Joining the quitters club here. I know that zen too. Love the picture at the end.

TV's Take said...

Love it, so few words so much said. Happy weekend

Patricia Iles said...

Wonderful writing! Very tight, great economy of words. Considering your audience, I think you struck a note here that chimed for all of us. Well, some of us a WHILE ago, but still. I remember. :D

Trish in AZ

http://writinginareddress.blogspot.com/2011/08/for-this-weeks-prompt-write-about.html

RJ said...

Good job on quitting!

Galit Breen said...

BRILLIANTLY done! I adore how much you trust your reader- no wasted words here. Love this!

jazzygal said...

Oh how I wish I could do the minimalist words post! Well done on being able to give them up like that.

xx Jazzy

CDG said...

More than just a season of change here.

Spare and tight and honest.

All good things.

Cheryl said...

Hee! I love this. Also, I'm glad you had a reason to quit smoking. ;)

Tina said...

pee on a stick lol ... good for you. its never easy is it :-)

MamaMash said...

I remember my last one before I found out I was pregnant as well! If I had known it was my last I would not have smoked it so quickly.

I managed to make it until my son was 9 months old before I touched another one. Ugh. Wish I'd resisted.

ShanimalsCrackers.blogspot.com said...

Ha, that cat picture made me laugh out loud. Thanks for that. And, yay for not smoking anymore. :)

Sandy said...

I"ve never been a smoker but you made the whole zen thing sound great. I'll stil with my wine, however.

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