Thursday, July 1, 2010

Stripped

I started this blog because I needed to write. I needed an outlet. At the time, I thought, “Yessss. A moment to say what I want, when I want, and let it feel good.” I didn’t anticipate then becoming concerned with what I thought people would want to read.

I want to write.

This is my space to do so.

Be entertained, be horrified, or secretly relate. Whatever.

Right now, I hear in my head, “I’m Rob Base, and I wanna rock RIGHT NOW.” (Who’s with me?)

I am experiencing at this moment my first complete night away in my own home without my husband and son. I want to explain what have been the most important events of my experience.

I did some blogging.

I worked out on my brand spankin new Wii fit and kicked my husband’s butt on balance points.

I showered.

I ran some quick, important easy errands. Whatever.

I came home, poured some wine, had chips and dip, and watched some Tivo’d shit TV.

I started writing. I loved it.

I boiled an artichoke and made noodles with green tea peppercorn seasoning and chicken. Hallelujah, bliss is never ending.

I watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona and re-ignited my love of art and adult thought.

In between, I would pause the movie WHEN I WANTED and write as the thoughts came to me.

I poured a little more wine and started the movie, Adventureland.

As I sit here, I look at the TV screen in the exact moment that I paused it, and there is a shithead riding his bike with a yellow headband on, and he is giving me the finger.

I am in heaven.

I can hear you out there right now.

“Oh my god, she is wasted.”

I do not care. (This is all spelled correctly, right?) I have had an EVENING, and it has all given me reminders of what I love:

Time to rediscover me.

Time to be hedonistic and reclaim a slice of freedom and ambiguity.

Time to be vulnerable.

Time to look around at all I have and know that it all comes back tomorrow.

Time to want my world, my hub, my bub, to be here with me again.

Time to remember that life is a funny, funny thing, and the moment we begin to give it a label, is the moment we lose sight of what it can give us.

19 comments:

Amy said...

I am SO freaking jealous of your evening alone! It sounds wonderful!

Didn't you just LOVE VIckie Christina Barcelona!! Made me want to drop everything and move the fam to Spain;)

Langdowns said...

Perfect!!! I am hearing you. You are officially my new favourite blog read of the week. Just in the process of loading you up on my site ...

Lucy said...

I so am deeply jealous, you have no idea. xx

Brenda said...

Amen to that last paragraph!!

And go you with your ME time! Colour me a tad jealous.; )

Jen said...

YES!

What an amazing night. :)

Stephanie in Suburbia said...

Wow, and I was waxing poetic about having a housekeeper for a day, who cleaned while I worked...in my basement...with my baby and three impending deadlines. My jealousy is climbing, but your post was so damn funny, I can't be mad at you!

Tenille @ Help!Mum said...

I miss that 'me time'. I'm glad you started your blog, and you are still enjoying it. I enjoy reading it :-)

Lacie @ Creative Attempts said...

I love time it's the best! This entire time I thought I was following you so i was trying to figure out what the heck the problem was and guess what I was no where to be found. Okay so now I am following (again) lol

Oddyoddyo13 said...

Mom's need time away from their family for a bit-it reminds them (and their family) of how much they love each other so less shrieking/pulling out hair moments occur. Or, at least, seem less and shorter.

Don't worry about what we think-we're hear to read about YOU!

Cheryl said...

That sounds entirely awesome. Entirely!

alexis said...

sounds like my idea of a perfect evening (without the alcohol, since i'm sober like that). it's a little-acknowledged fact that being without your family is one of the only things that can make you appreciate them for what they really mean to you. it sometimes makes me laugh when women pretend that they never need time away from their children. maybe i'm just being cynical, but i don't live on that planet.

Ca88andra said...

Just found your blog and love it! It sounds like you had an awesome time.

chele said...

I love posts like this. I love moments like this. I'm about to leave for my 3-day spa trip and I hope to come away feeling some of what you just described. Enjoy the holiday weekend.

sandy said...

Kristy, you make me proud to be related to you!!

Ma What's 4 dinner said...

Amen!!! Can I come over for the next one? Wonderfully written, girl!

Have a great 4th of July.

Lots of yummy love,
Alex aka Ma, What's For Dinner
www.mawhats4dinner.com

ElizOF said...

Kristy,
I am laughing so hard as this is hysterical... You are witty not wasted and your insights were spot-on. Loved this post; keep it up!
Thank you for your SITS Day visit to my blog; I appreciated the visit.
Happy 4th!
Eliz

Krista said...

Sounds like you had a really awesome night. Good for you, you deserved it! :o)

LambAround said...

What a beautiful/fun post. Good for you! :)

Kristi {at} Live and Love...Out Loud said...

Lucky you! We all need time to relax, unwind and rediscover who we are without the wife and mommy label. Sounds like you had a great night of indulgence and self-discovery. Good for you!
Thanks for stopping by Kristy. Have a fabulous day. :)

Kristi, Live and Love...Out Loud
@TweetingMama