Wednesday, October 5, 2011
The above quote is a prompt from Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop this week.
I have too many close family and friends who read this blog for me to feel comfortable divulging freely on my thoughts about the above quote.
It definitely makes me think of someone.
Someone I wish would take actions to show that they care about what I'm doing and how I am.
Similar to the quote above, I also tell myself, "I will put in to this relationship only as much as I get out of it."
It is a simple way I have chosen to manage a complicated, on-again and off-again relationship in my life.
So, when I try to reach out, but the card comes back "recipient not at this address," I have already lowered my expectations and the hurt doesn't hurt so much anymore. It's just a dull bruise that is noticed from time to time. I have come to a place of acceptance, or resignation, that this is the way things are. Not everyone shows love in the same way, and I know that love is there. What I am uncertain of is the level of thoughtfulness or caring that is there, which reminds me of another quote I think of from time to time:
Love more. Care Less.
Love with all your heart, but care less about what others should be doing. Live your own life, free from worrying about what you cannot control.
Every once in a while, I still put myself out there to this person, but now I know not to have high expectations for what is given in return.
Instead of focusing on what is given in return, my heart is ready and open for all the joy that I have around me all the time: my son, my husband, my mom, my brother, my niece, my close friends (Thank you, God, for friends!). My heart remains open.